Think up another idea just to satisfy the masses. Think of a plan, think of the character; what are they going to look like, talk, act, height, color, hair, human, animal, robot, inanimate objects. Need I go on, with which the things that need your attention. Hours and hours on end with no recollection of the time I spent thinking of my babies on the paper. Waiting for someone to go and fund me and like the character and the stories I have drawn. Thinking that I am actually worthy to present my child to the world, and expect the kick starter to go viral. The fear that it will be rejected by everyone and never go out to the public, for I know that someone out there would enjoy the child I created. The entertainment business is a rough one. My child might not even get noticed for the amount of time I spent caring for it. For all I know only a small handful of people may notice but that won’t be enough to get them out there to the world. My idea might not have even taken off in the first place. On the programs, they sit there just wondering what is wrong. Why haven’t I been noticed yet? Will I ever become more than I can be?  Then they change some of the images around and rewrite another story. For my child has been born, broken, beaten, used, thrown, grown up, and changed. My child will still live within me and will shine within the public’s eyes.

I am here to look for the role that I was meant for. What could I possibly do to make my entertainment career begin? Should I possibly make videos, a movie, comedy act, voice act, play games, produce another work, make a book, or just work for a company? But I don’t want to make myself seem bad in front thousands of people. What if they don’t like what I make. I need to make something good. I don’t want to be another memory that the people only saw for my face. I want to be remembered for what I actually did. For what I worked so hard for. As an entertainer, I am expected to entertain the masses and produce and execute everything perfectly. I am expected to make people laugh, cry, sing, possibly even memories the lines that I say, and watch over and over again. I don’t want to leave this business that I call my own. I want to continue and be someone that people will remember and come and watch me over and over again and keep me going on this path. Everything relies on wat the people see and what the people want to watch and expect me to be in next. I’m scared that I won’t be able to provide my entertainment talents the world.
The expectations are too great and too scary to not be realized and followed up with something new.