Just born,
Mom says-
I was getting attention in the hospital room
I was crying- I wanted to be alone, alone with her
Memories made

It’s my sixth birthday,
Everyone is greeting me at my party-
I love it but…
I hate to admit the truth,
I am aging
Memories made

Graduating middle school,
Saying the goodbyes,
Saying the see you next years
Scared-
Don’t want to move on,
Don’t want to grow up.
Memories made

Marriage
I have met the man of my life,
My best friend-
My everything,
Dad came to my wedding
That was the first time I remember seeing his face
I was anxious at first-
Then it was like a dream come true
Memories made

Celebrating my 50th birthday
We decide to go out to breakfast
I’m happy to celebrate, but…
The anxiety, it is working good-
I am frightened to age anymore
Slowly aging

Why?
Why my best friend?
Why my everything?
He just had to pass away,
Didn’t he?
Now I don’t have anxiety.
Anxiety has me
The more I think of it the worse it gets.
Slowly aging

Anxiety-
It’s like a chain,
A chain wrapped around me-
It grabs you
It messes with your head
It controls you
The emotions

Anger-
Why did I let these things happen?
How did I not know he was sick?
This is my fault,
I thought there was something wrong-
But I kept it to myself
Nothing or no one to blame but myself
The emotions

All timers
Slowly forgetting,
Everything
Memories fade

I am no longer scared to age,
Now I have realized to live life,
Wait what was I saying?
Memories fade

Every time…
I talk I end up forgetting,
You know, what I am talking about
Memories fade

Sitting out in my rocking chair,
Drip…
Drop…
It’s raining, really hard
It’s coming down as fast as my life went by
Memories fade

I’m dying
Air-
I need it
My lungs are closing,
I can’t breathe
I’m dead
Memories gone