What happens when forever over ?
I see the pain he's brought you the loud noises in the middle of the night the screams everything he was suppose to be my hero my guidance the man who gives me away to my husband you call yourself a father ? I hated my father more and more everyday mommy forgives you but Me ? I still hate you ill always hate you see I use to think what you did nothing wrong. But as I grow older and learn more things I see what your doing is wrong and because of you I think its right to let another boy do me the way you do my mother I remember one night unconditinal   you and mommy were arguing ill never believe the words that came out of your mouth they were " I hope you die " then a big door came like a windy day and smacked closed he left. Is he gone mommy ?  Are you okay ? Did the bad guy hurt you again ? She wanted me and my siblings to think you were good for our family because you brought clothes shoes and groceries but you see mommy does the same thing without you she's a brave women a fighter is what I call it I love her so much but in my eyes you were the flu the sickness we needed to get rid of why are you here ? I hate you I never wanted him to come back but he did . I remember the holes in the walls the more you stayed the more I wanted to leave.  I have three big brothers Josh Malachi and Darrel they seen they way you treated our mother they were upset with you too I tell them everyday "you guys are better than daddy I don’t want to ever see you guys act like this you hear me "? They understood what I meant even though I was the baby in the family they disliked our father a lot but not like me I wanted him to feel what I felt until one morning we got a phone call I was over Grandma Marie house she woke me up out of my sleep with the screaming and the loud noises I asked what's wrong she said its your father! I said what about him? she said he's gone they killed him I had no questions she said he was shot this morning around 2'00 a.m  nobody know the guy all I could think was bad things happen to bad people . I said out loud "everybody has to die someday right"? She looked at me in the most shocked face I have ever seen I shed not one tear I seen mommy hours later she had sun glasses on I could tell she was hurt but I wasn’t nobody deserves to die but I didn't care now you’re a memory you won't ever see my kid grow up you won't ever see walk down that aisle I don't ever think about you anymore mommy is happy now I think I don't know but I think I'm even happier for her .