Sometimes I feel as if God is so far away,

Till he can't even hear my up most utterance,

My attempt of praise .

Why can't you speak lord ?

Are you shaming my shame , laughing at my calamities ...?

No lord , I'll never question your integrity ..

But the scripture only told me to try you..

Call upon him while he is near ..

I'm calling but there's no answers,

I'm dancing but there's no effectiveness...

I'm crying but, my tears fear emphasized by the condemnation of the arisen..

Why can't you speak lord ?

Show me that you're there..

Talk back to me ...

Reveal to me some things ...

Or maybe I'm just too blind to even see,

What you have in store for me ..

Perhaps I'm not worthy of your favor ..

That's why my prayers feel...

Feel more empty than before,

They run across my psyche but..

But fear to ever spill about ...

The notions of my denoted mind...

Seeking an invested word ...

So I say ,

Dear God.....