Everyone's yelling and no one's around. They are yelling don't do it, it's not worth it, you'll be better without. Then when I need someone the most there's not even a sound. You see everyone thinks they understand life and know what's best for me somehow.. but how? I've been through stuff, maybe more than him or less that you but I know too. This is my life and I can't be bossed around. I know what I want, I know what I need, and I know what needs to be found... Bare with me now. He said forever but forever ended short, I had second thoughts but never did resort. Anytime something happened we worked through it, it was perfect. Then it all crashed down and I'm left to reflect. Reflect on everything not just him. I need to move on with my life and my plate is filled to the brim, but how do you move on when he was all your happiness and now nothing makes sense. I pull it together all day and build a fence, but when night rolls around and the only thing running through my mind is his smile and him holding me tight I'm DEFENSELESS.. I try and I try, nobody sees, yet they all have the nerve to tell me so many things. I can't take it anymore, I've had enough! I pull out that blade knowing I shouldn't but I do it anyway, and as I watch the crimson red beads I realize that in that moment life isn't as rough. So I pull myself together again and again. I walk to my bed and try to get some sleep in. But the cycle just begins. The crying never ends and I beg god or whatever is out there just to MAKE IT STOP! But nothing ever answers and all I can feel is that my head is going to POP from all the pressure. Pressure from everyone and nobody even knows, they all just keep on yelling. They yell and they yell. And as I lay here thinking, everyone's yelling and no one's around.