I can't sleep.
So I stare out of my window sill
The cars that go past honk and beep.
I think for you, always. You are so selfish to think I'd never care, but I always will.
The truth is that no matter what, you'll still be this way. I can't change that, I'll love you either way.
So if you're feeling so inclined listen to me.
Please stay.
And one day you will see.

The sun is now rising and I'm here waiting to know that you're doing just fine.
Sometimes I feel like I'm being lied to, that everything's going to be okay,
A pitter patter of rain hits my window, and I remember how much you like the rain.
And now is start to think, so take a  journey through what life might be like.
You might be gone.
You might not be.
Have the familiar faces become too familiar?
If it's my fault tell me.

Your cheeks were red like the most vibrant roses.
But over time that washed away. 
You shined like the sun on its brightest day,
And now your skies are gray.
Your laugh brought out mine.
With your terrible jokes.
Even If it was bad.
Even if I was sad.

I didn't laugh like I did before I met you.
I won't laugh like I used to if you leave.
I think that you reassuring me that everything will be okay hurts the most.
Especially when you have no idea.
Now I feel guilty for never watching your favorite movie,
Even though there terrible.
For not spending every possible moment with you.
Because you could be gone and you might not be.

Maybe things would be different.
Maybe you'd still be here.
Maybe you'd stay forever.
Maybe, just maybe.
And I'd watch the terrible movies, just to make you happy.
To others this might not mean a thing.
But this is just what I think.
To you It could mean something.

But that's not what I think.
What I think of is happiness, and that's you. 
And then you reply.
You say everything's alright.
And my sadness slowly subsides.
And to think I thought you almost died.
Boy I would've cried.
So let's put this aside.