My heart was cracked
How desperate I was
Seeking attention
In place of love
It was foolish of me
I will admit
But pathetically
I truly thought I needed it

Everyone had so much
I needed to see
If I could have it too
Could it belong to me
Could I carve it on my arms
Would it bleed out from the seams of my skin
Would my misery make its way out
Instead of settle in?

I thought If I put myself there
Could I maybe make someone care
If I show them what they want
Would they stay and stop and stare
They all want different things
But I would just adjust
Yet no matter what I did
It was never enough

Too scared to force my way in
To put my heart in their hands
Because I knew they didn't want it
I couldn't make them
I can't
I showed myself out
Went to the door
To the place of the crooked carved and Cracked
I've come to know it as
Nevermore.