BEST FRIEND.

They gave him an overdose
of anesthetic, and its fog
shut down his heart in seconds.

Except I wasn’t there to watch him pass.

My tear soaked body,
already slumped by a window
driving away from my        Best Friend.
Leaving him
his
drowning organs,
his golden
sweet face,
where I could see no white.
His
grimy green
collar
wrapped warmly
around his neck,
I had to say goodbye.

The word punched me in the gut.

The angels longed for him,
but this “dog”, he was mine.

We would rest in fields of grass.
Focused in a daze as white fluffy animals danced along.
And then,
I’d sleep
he’d lay
never leaving my side.

So how could I leave now?

I felt abandoned.
Bleu
I’d slam the door and cry.
Falling asleep
and knowing
he’s not there,
how could I even wake?

I had to say goodbye to my        Best Friend.

So I watched as his tail wagged away.