My heart said it's gonna attack

but my spine said it's got my back,
while my soul starts to quit,
but then I relapse
and my mind stands still
just to relax
because this migraine hit my brain back
while I got no stacks
or reasons to kick back.
I’m afraid of change so
I'll be sitting here with my pudding cups,
six packs.

This fear in me,
set it free.
It wants something
better,
bigger,
brighter.
A brighter future.
To do that they say
keep my head in a book
before I lose it.

But I think I'm losing it...

Regret is the monster in your mind
attacks when you try to un-wind.
Forget it, it’s an unseen dream
drowning in a sea of time.
As these thoughts run across my mind
either I fall or I stay inclined.

I'm going insane
while people are deranged.
This wasn't me before
there's a difference in my brain.
I'm scared I'm gonna fall,
scared I'm gonna trip,
scared I'm gonna fail at the hands of my lips.

The only way to get past
these thoughts,
these fears,
and these imperfections is to say
don’t be afraid,
no.
Don’t be afraid,
no.
Don’t be afraid to lose.