There's no meaning in words,

At least- that's what I'd been taught,

Now when I think- it hurts,

Because I think of what I've lost,

I tried not to annoy,

Those who around me,

But you were this little boy,

Who just couldn't abide,

You were always there,

Right by my side,

Even when we entered the principal's lair,

And all the while at school,

Though your ego was too big,

And you acted much too "cool",

You ate like a pig,

But I loved you still,

You teased me to death,

Even when I threatened to kill,

You continued to taunt my "bad breath",

And when I threatened to slaughter,

Oh my God,

You just got hotter,

But when life got hard,

And high school felt like a war,

You helped me to survive,

I told you that I couldn't hurt anymore,

And you told me to strive,

To do my best,

To live just one more day,

And then endure the rest,

You went out of your way,

To save my life,

And straight through your heart,

I stabbed you with a knife,

To you I owe everything,

You were supposed to be "immortal",

An unstoppable being,

You gave a last chortle,

Then the monitor stopped beeping,

I didn't know what I was doing,

I didn't realize,

All the good that I was ruining,

And I will never forget,

Because you really haven't left,

No, not quite yet,

You committed the worst theft,

You took my heart and you took my all,

Now maybe I'm wrong,

Maybe about it all,

And maybe I've been wrong all along,

But now I stand here saying what I've done,

Because you weren't ready,

To lose your long run,

My love for you will always be steady,

Because it always was,

I wouldn't dare say it aloud,

Because I've always been,

Too afraid of a nosy crowd,

I never gave words a thought,

I wanted to find a way to explain that it wasn't me,

That you were the one who ruined it,

But now I've grown to see,

That it was me not wanting to love,

If I would've known that it wasn't a dud,

There would've been less shoves,

And less kicks, punches, and blood,

If I'd known that you wanted me too,

There might've been another kiss or hug,

Maybe even two,

I would've given you more than a shrug,

And I know that you would have never let it go,

But now I long to be pestered,

How I long for it so,

My heart has festered,

Because I want to hear your voice,

To see your messy blonde hair,

Your green eyes looking into my blue,

And even for us to just snap and swear,

So maybe if I'd expressed it,

If I had told you the truth,

Our love would still be lit,

I wouldn't have lost the person who's youth,

Kept me young and happy,

Not alone but with you,

I miss the arms that now aren't wrapped around me,

And I miss watching you never get full,

But now that's all in the past,

And I am forced to face reality,

And I have to face it fast,

So here I stand,

Waiting for you,

Waiting for someone to tell me it was all a scam,

Because I didn't have a clue,

About what was happening,

But now I do,

I understand why everything but your face was blurry,

I understand those crazed emotions,

And now I know that,

It wasn't a potion,

That led me to this pain,

I thought I lost nothing, but that wasn't true,

I lost everything,

Because my everything was you.