I love how I have a loving family to annoy, a place to call home, food to eat, and friends to call family.

But, I hate the decisions I made to get here.
To make me hate and regret my life.
Because I stopped talking to them.
Because she died angry at me.
Because you left.
I didn't know that a topping would ruin my life.
I didn't know that one laugh and one action would be the ending of a memorable friendship.
Because you harass.
You scrape off every last feeling that makes me feel amazing, so that you can repaint what I'm worth. Nothing...
I'm nothing in their eyes.
In their eyes I'm just this person that just plays Minecraft all day.
That is just worthless and lifeless.
But, I'm something in your eyes.
In your eyes I'm actually a person, a human being.
A friend that always needs a hand.
Always needing a person by his side.
Always needing you...

Because you are amazing.
You have been through the toughest of the tough and the "worstest" of the worst to save me.
To save me from the bullets, words, and feelings that life had shot at me.

Before I fall you came out and made a shield.
Made a barrier for me to stand behind so I can survive.
To give the right words so I can keep standing.
Keep believing that I am still a person that the world cares about.

But there are times that you are too late.
I fall before you come out.
I dont listen to the words you spit out.
I start drowning in feelings, words, and ideas.
But, you stay out there trying to get me out.
Then, you bandage the wounds that I have collected from people and life.
The life that I regret.
And the people that twist the knife in me.

So I thank you for staying, for helping me, for changing me, for motivating me, and for accepting me.
Thanks for caring more than you should and for putting up with all of me.
Thanks for amazing moments like licking instances forever eternity, to "You're a reptilian" ,to "soawes", to "Horsey Cake" and to "Gledga, I thought we taught you better."
I thank you for being my best friend.
To reach out to me.

To fix me.