Today you said goodbye to me
And left me all alone.
You had moved on to another me
With bigger arms and broader shoulders.
His hair is better cut.
His chest, warmer.

I told you my soul’d wilted
I told you my heart’d broke

You left me with a demon,
His name is doubt.
His name is pain.
He greets me in the morning when I wake.
He lays beside me when I sleep.
In my dreams he visits, to bring you back in mind.
Keeping me stuck, broken, and blind.

I wondered if I’d find a cure for this sickness
His arms are long and his hands are wide

I looked in my friends
I looked in my books
I looked in the arms of my mother.
Still he sits, ever sitting
Nothing giving balm
Nothing giving aid.

But today I found it tucked away
In a place seeming so far away.
In me it sat all along
This beaming light of day.

I found it in my marrow.
I found it in my guts.
I found it in my synapses,
Bouncing back and forth.
It is a beam of blinding light,
Only there for me.
Only to be shared, by those gave a piece to me.

I know now I gave a piece to you.
A piece you once wanted
A piece you threw away.
That light is now extinguished.
No sparkle left there, only pain.

So never again, will you reach into my marrow
Never again will you grab into my guts
Never again will you try to catch it between my synapses.
I’ll save what’s left of it for me,
And watch your shadow fade away.