My head can be an awful thing,
screaming hate into my mind,
It is not me,
it is my family who can never be kind.
Why did they make such a horrible name?
My heart was hurt, filled with a burning flame.
I was mocked and ostracized,
My family left me helpless and traumatized.
I go home and think about what they have said to me,
It rings in my ear like the buzz of a bee.
I should change so they would leave me alone,
The way I am is the only thing I've ever known.
I can change who I am for them,
but they having nothing in their brain stem.
Trying to change to be normal,
Maybe I just wanna be abnormal.