The happiness was a noticeable absence,
And I continued to mourn,
I continued to tread – I still do,
It’s clear I was breaking apart

When I sit, I put my head down,
Hoping not to be noticed,
My heart is a drum – beating fast,
All while my mind finds itself going numb

It was a bittersweet memory,
It was a stop-keep going moment,
It was a pause-rewind,
It was strangely comfortable

As I replay the events,
The drum has stopped beating,
My mind starts racing,
And time – slows down,

As I hear a ringing in my ears,              
Time is no longer slow,
And the ringing comes to a stop,
Leaving me in a quiet presence,

I catch my breath,
Then fall to my knees,
I scream and yell,
Hoping to be noticed