Today's a special
Though I don't care much for it
Long lost friends surprised me
Ah, my birthday
And a surprise birthday party
They were looming just around the corner
I had felt their presences
Sending an ever-lengthening shadow over me
The storm was coming
Sitting in a circle on the ground
In my dark room
Just recounting how life has been
Overthinking was late as always
And Fear was a week early
Depression and Lonely met me
As Addiction and Cutting did
They brought gifts of Ache and Pain
And memories of when we were closer
Bittersweet cake in my mouth
The foul taste of Self-Hate
Hugging them greetings
It hurt, they were blades slicing me
As I look around my room
I grab my friends from the collar
My special birthday friends
Look right into and through my eyes
For I'm looking at myself
Mirrors of my feelings
Trying to throw them away
Trying to push them away
I'm standing in a room full of mirrors
And here comes Tears, Sobbing and Shaking
In the arms of proud parents
Anxiety and Panic Attack
With the cousin who followed along
Hello Insecurity
I really don't want friends
I just want to be alone...
Alone