That one phone call…
Changed my life for good.
August 12th 2009, was the day you left for good.
I didn't realise what was happening…
until Charlotte started crying.
That's when my heart sank into my stomach…
like a rock sinks to the bottom of a pond.
Holding your hand…
I walked into your room, everything was quiet.
It felt like the world stopped that day.
I held your hand, you looked so peaceful…
but so cold…
as if you were asleep.
Seeing everyone…
walking into a big quiet room.
Seeing your photos on a t.v. screen,
going along to your favorite songs.
And then seeing you…
I remember watching you rest,
you looked so handsome.
Everyone was so quiet,
that you’d hear a pin fall…
or they were crying.
At that moment I wasn't doing anything…
I didn't want to hear people apologize for my loss…
or hear them say you were in a better place..
I already knew you’d be okay.
After a lot of gun salutes,
and helpful prayers…
I said my last goodbye to you.
I try to look at it as you were going to Iraq,
for a year, because i was so young.
But I understand now…
I’ll never forget you.