This year I want low-stress
I want to go run into the water and be refreshed and cold
I want to put on my boots and winter jacket and go for a walk and hold snow in my hand and lie in the snow bundled up in my snow pants and mittens and scarf
I want to open my mouth and taste the frosty snowflakes and take off my hood and feel the brisk air
I want to go out and find clementine-colored leaves and cherry-red leaves and put them in books until they can stand up straight
I want to go downtown and buy plants, even if I have an essay due the next day
I want to have flowers in a vase next to my bed
I want to make the flower vase from a glass bottle I cleaned and made naked and simple
I want to drink lots of water
And keep a notebook next to my bed that I write some poetry or thoughts in EVERY day
I want a boy who I deserve and who understands what I want
Someone who likes alternative bands and who wants to love life and who will have fun picking out plants with me
I want to find mini trees and leaves and roots and water them and put all of them in my window sill and check them everyday and look up directions on how to care for them because I want to be like their mother and keep them alive and well
I want to wake up as late or early as I want
I want to feel beautiful or magnificent and have my photo taken
I want to see bubblegum pink skies and other days when the sky is just blue or thundering when I'm inside
I want to take bubble baths in pink water with flower pieces
I want to write poetry in 45 seconds and not be told its wrong
I want to wake up and have plans
I want to stay up late and make plans that I look forward too the next day or weeks from now
I want to stay up just until I'm tired
And then sleep until I'm well-rested
I want to live where I enjoy myself
and can feel my body enjoying itself
I want to feel freedom and joy
I want to make decisions without having to explain myself
I want to be myself
I want to not worry about school
I want to live like this
I long to live like this
I want to love my life