What I really want to say is

That I don't want to stay here

When you ask me what it is that I want

I say nothing

But I very much do know what it is that I want

I know that I don't want to stay here

But I know that we have nowhere else to go

I know I want to go home

But home is no longer

My new home is foreign

I know I want to go home so badly

I know that I can never go back

I would tell you what it is that I want

But I know your answer will be reruns

And when you tell me No! We can't go

My head hangs down -- eyes closed

Crying inside

Outside I say, "I know."