I wonder as I wander

Down the busy streets of Manhattan

The lights so bright it makes my head hurt and my eyes blink

I wonder

If my mother knows where I am

If she even cares

I wonder as I wander

Through a dark, crowded alleyway

Where the sweet smell of pot filters through the putrid air

I wonder

If I'll try drugs someday

If I'll ever get a high that isn't sugar

I wonder as I wander

Past rowhouses and lines of laundry swaying in the breeze

And guys so hot my skin burns with the intense heat

I wonder

If I'll ever get kissed

If I'll ever have sex

I wonder as I wander

Past scary oceans and starry nights

That moon turns full every 3 hours and the hair on the back of my neck is raised

I wonder

If God can see me

If He even cares

I wonder as I wander

To worlds unknown and places I've never been

Where I feel lost and alone and confused and scared

I wonder

If I'll ever find home

If there even is a home