I can't look at the world beautifully anymore

You've gone and stolen my light

Every color I see becomes sad to me

You've stripped me of my joy

I can no longer look at your favorite animal anymore

Everywhere I look I see elephants,

And it haunts my soul

Everytime I see an elephant 

My heart grows heavy and sad

Almost like it wants to kill itself

And I only want to lay down and cry

I can no longer see a smile

And not think of yours

How bright and neat your smile was

How warm it made me feel to see you smile

But now I only grow sad

And my heart grows heavier 

You made me see ignorant beauty in everything

Now, everthing just hurts me

It all burns my heart 

Curses my soul

And strains my eyes as it all grows dark

I cannot see colors as happy

They all remind me of the flower prints you used to wear

But what color makes me the saddest to see is pink

Your favorite color because

"pink makes every flower pretty"

Your favorite color because

"pink makes me feel like I am beautiful"

Every color brings happiness

But that all fades once I see them

Because all I feel is you in all of them

Every color I see grows dimmer

Especially my favorite color because

"That is a depressing color to me"

Or,

"Don't show me that color it will make me sad"

Nothing is no longer the same because of you

You single handedly ruined me unintentionally

You ripped my heart out without even trying

You spit on me like he spit on you

Yet you claim, "It's not the same"

Like hell it isn't

You squirmed yourself into every piece of my mentality

I see you in everything

And damn you for liking such popular things

Becuase I see them everwhere

I see elephants in the news

In every social media I own

And I see pink in all the flowers surrounding me

And you know what sucks?

When I see them together

It strikes at my heart not once, but twice

You left me a mess like he did to you

That's how you moved on

You dumped all your hurt onto someone else

You are like a selfish child

You live your life so fast now

You act so wildly

You take advantage of how lucky your life really is

You only do that now

Simply because you dumped your hurt on to me 

You melded it into my skin

You made sure that I wouldn't give it back

So here I am

Looking at the world

I've given up on you

And now when I look at everything

Colors, flowers, elephants, whatever

I find myself mumbling to myself

"It's not the same".