"I don't have the correct change"

I told myself over and over

Counting the nickels and dimes exactly

Reading the sign that clearly stated

I did in fact

Have the right change

I just won't buy it

I don't want to seem stupid

"Oh god my shoes don't match my shirt"

I yelled at myself over and over

Despite the fact that black shoes

No matter the shirt

Match everything

I'll just change them next period

I don't want to be laughed at

"Oh my goodness is she going to call on me?"

I asked myself over and over

Even though the teacher didn't look in my direction

And I knew the answer

To the question

I'll just move to the seat in the back

I don't want to be wrong

"They don't really love me"

I insulted myself over and over

Regardless of the fact that they tell me

Every day

That they really does

I'll just leave them now

I don't want them to break my heart

"Oh man they probably know about my anxiety"

I stressed over and over

Even though no one asked

And no one seemed

To ever notice

I'll just pretend I'm really happy

I don't want them to think I want attention

Or maybe I'll write about it

"They won't like my title"

I laughed at myself over and over

My ideas were good

And I felt all these emotions

That someone had to relate to

I'll just do it anyway

For once