trying to comprehend life's entirety while bearing the luggage of our unambiguous past 

trying to make sense of right and wrong when what we are told is not what we see

trying to cling desperately to a symbol of hope, a flicker of light 

trying to latch onto our dreams as they slowly but leisurely slip from our weakened, mortal grasps

trying to stay afloat when we know the inevitable force of gravity will doom us ultimately

trying, always trying 

trying to ignore the pain that will never leave, swallowing us whole like the dark depths of the ocean, pushing us farther and farther down until the light dancing off the surface is merely a figment of our imagination-burning,everything burning, yearning for it to return, knowing we are far too deep for an attempt at recovery 

trying, always trying 

trying to remain in the game as we fall away from the crowd, away from the giggles and chatter where no one can hear us cry for help or weep our sorrows as if a wall of stone was forged between us and the world- we watch it being built brick by brick, piece by piece, only standing and staring, staring and standing as we gradually diminish into nothingness, becoming one with the oblivion we hide in fear of

trying, always trying

trying to leave our footsteps behind- the ocean tide washing them away as though they were never there, laughing and taunting us, telling us to try again 

trying to hold on to the tiny grains of sand before they are whisked away in the wind 

trying to believe in a tomorrow though we can't even understand now 

trying to see our reflection in the window though our world has clouded it with greed 

trying to see the blue pastel sky though our vision has been blurred with blood splatters 

trying to write a thousand words- if only we knew that one would leave us more satisfied than infinity ever could 

trying to fit the word infallible when the only definition we belong under is human 

trying, always trying