In time we will figure out who we are ,what makes us the way we are. Many people don't know who they are so they pretend to be something that their not. To be honest I feel bad for the people that can't find themselves, feeling lost, or acting completely different.You think everyone is your friend, well your wrong because most people are against you, like they say " Keep your friends close and your enemies closer" . The truth is everyone who I have talked to or I am " friends" withall talk behind my back.I for some reason can spot deception from someone even if they don't talkI can tell. The only reason I can is because I get bullied every single day of my life for a whole entire year. The hardest year of my life. These are the memoriesand thoughts that will never go away the thoughts of suicide that I always think about and the ones that break me downand fall apart inside But tear me down on the outside slowly but hurtful at the same time. Truth is I hate getting wanting to die because I get bullied. I cut ( self - harm) to take the pain away it does but not all the time. This battle I can't fight , I know I will never win , I lose everyday when I just want to die already.