Screwing up
and feeling like a screw up
are two different things

Screwing up
is getting a C on a math test
that you didn’t study for

Feeling like a screw up
is getting a C on a math test
that you pulled an all-nighter for
that you really did work for
that would’ve brought your grade up
by a whole letter

Screwing up
is missing your entrance
during rehearsal

Feeling like a screw up
is missing your entrance
during a performance
during the last performance
while your parents
your teachers
your peers
your directors
are watching

Screwing up
is saying something mean
and immediately saying sorry
and they understand

Feeling like a screw up
is saying something mean
and immediately saying sorry
and looking at the hurt on their face
and knowing that you will never
ever
ever
be able to take it back

Screwing up
is making a mistake

Feeling like a screw up
is making a mistake
and watching your whole world
crumble
crash
f
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right before your very eyes