There is a boy with topaz eyes
Who I admire everyday
I wished he could be mine
I wished he knew I feel this way
But the stars aren’t aligned
I know he could never feel the same.

I find myself get lost in my visions
I am a victim of a wistful fantasy
I imagine us laughing and dancing
Or us traveling and romancing
Even the simplest things are satisfying
I imagine our impossible future
But I know he could never see the things the same.

I passed a place I remember he once spoke to me
The words flew out of his mouth like a perfect wave in a vast sea
I can hear his voice drift through my mind
Even in the hardest times it set me at ease
But my words never came out as gracefully
So I know he never thought that way towards me.

I remember it was raining, much like it is today
That night I felt my chances were stolen away
A girl struggling in her battle against cancer, her family by her side
On that night, she and her dreams of a future both died
Forever unfulfilled her love shall be
It should come as no real surprise that girl is me.
 
   For the story to end here wouldn’t be right
   Despite it raining just as it had that night
   I observe the boy of my thoughts take an unfamiliar road
   I sense urgency in his step, purpose in his mode
   He solemnly walks forward, gingerly laying a lonely rose
   The brush clears and an icy draft westward blows
   Tears combine with the rainfall and streak down his face
   I reach out to console him, as pointless as that sounds
   It makes sense now why he chose this place
   I was laid to rest in these grounds

We never did attain happiness nor create any memories
But I realize now it’s foolish to treat life or God as enemies
The boy and I stand there as we both mourn our destiny
For a split second he appears to stare into my eyes
And for the first time since that night I feel like I’ve been set free