broken,abused, and exploited
all for what?
your sick, selfish benefit
i was only 7
how could you do that to your own daughter?

told me we were going to a party
you said
there would be animals...
that i’d have fun
you made me believe
that you really loved me?...

not saying you don't,
you were under the influence
of innumerable things,
but how could...
how can i pardon you?

i’ve omitted all the thoughts
emotions
everything away
for years

just a thought
it came back

i can't fall asleep without crying
every
single
night

friends, family
mad
just because a few cuts
i didn't know what else to do

mad
depressed
confused
let down

so many feelings
they hit

hard

and
hurt like when you used to hit me
remember?
probably not

a closet, dark, musty
all i remember is other girls
their eyes so dull, shallow

i was lucky enough to get out
you made me experience
what they experience everyday…
i will hate myself
for not knowing
what was going on
i will hate myself for not helping them

i didnt know…

just a sorry
genuine
but you’re too naive
too blind to even realized what
you put me through

it’s affected me
don’t you dare think
it didn’t

got a call
it was you
drunk
you told me i,

i

need to apologize…
“for what?”
“for making me hurt and nearly putting me in jail”

nearly...
you should’ve gone

you’re my dad
i love you
you gave me everything
but now
older, smarter
was it just because…
because you wanted me to forget?
you had your plan
act like nothing was wrong
spoil me...

she’ll forget…
right?
wrong
i will never

you scarred me
and now i scar myself with lines on my arms
i hurt myself for the pain
and damage
and depression
i feel inside

how can you care for me
make me feel secure
and then go get your “friends”
and make me feel obscene?

did you like it when i screamed out in pain?
the thought of it is driving me insane…
do i even deserve to live?

we can raise our voice and bring it to an end
set the captives free
they’re a victim
a slave
to a system of apathy…

it needs to stop…
it’s not ok

you contributed to it…

this is my letter to you…….