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Help Needed, Not Wanted

February 6, 2015
By Distant_Freedom DIAMOND, Nowhere, Pennsylvania
Distant_Freedom DIAMOND, Nowhere, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today. -James Dean

There are times when I feel so down
And just so awful that I can't do
Anything but sit there and stare at
A wall. I have to force myself to do
Anything at all, and everything is
Just so painful. I want it to stop.
I don't want to feel like this anymore,
But I just can't help it.
I have no power to stop these feelings.
I don't feel worthless. I don't hate
Myself or anything about me.
I just feel sad about nothing.
Every day I wish I could go back
A few years ago to before I
Started feeling like this all the time.
I know that's not possible,
But I can always hope. And hope
Is my best friend, along with
A few other things. I have all these
Thoughts trapped in my brain,
And no way to release them because
I just don't have the words with which
To express them. It kills me day by
Painful day to live like this,
And I only have two choices.
Keep on living and fight the
Unwinnable fight or give up
And give in to the temptation.
I feel tempted all the time,
And it is most of what I think about.
It all comes down to me wishing
I could do something, ANYTHING.
But I know I can't. And that feeling
Of helplessness and uselessness
Drags me down. Help me.

The author's comments:

For a while now, I was feeling on top of the world. Then some bad stuff happened, and now I feel awful all the time. It seems like it only takes a small push to have me falling over the edge.

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