how are you

i am fine, but

am i really

i am depressed

i live in a world of nothingness

emotional grief has engulfed me in it's iron grip

it won't let go

the sorrow has become too much and now controls me, but

i am fine

i am angered

my stomach boils 

my hands clench while i shake

the need for deep breathes is great

they had no right to comapre the conditions, but

i am fine

I am melancholy

others pains flash before my eyes

an endless pit of worry

a heavy heart dragging down my once soaring spirit

the loss of another family member is unbearable, but 

i am fine

I am befuddled

words, places, and numbers swirl aimlessly in the abyss of my mind

the days and weeks go by so fast my head spins

a plethora of unanswerable questions come to mind

it is the constant zoning out, but 

i am fine

i am scared

the shadows lazily creep twards me

the darkness makes me jump

my heart pounds while my insides squirm

too frightened to ever watch Bones again, but

i am fine

I am flustered

my stomach is eating itself up

my nails are now nothing

the pressure is suffocating me

anxious for the upcoming PARCC, but

i am fine

i am jubilent

the excitment makes me jittery

the extra bounce in my step

the uneraseable ear to ear girl

anxious for the competition to begin, but

i am fine

i am guilty

i am on edge to the point thinking is impossible

my heart heavy so i must tell someone

my nerves are going haywire

i just had to get revenge, but

i am fine

i am in love

my heart is melting

with only him on my mind

an endless giddy feeling in my stomach

as the picture perfect boy is on tv, but

i am fine

i am human

my emotions vary

they swirl around my pre-occupied mind and body like a summer breeze

i am more than good, o.k., or fine

life has multiple emotions some easier to tell than other,but

i am always just fine

i am fine

all the distinctive emotions put into three words

the automatic answer to the most simple question

no thought or sencerity in the answer, but

i am still fine

remember

how are you

i am fine,but

am i really