It.

There she is.
Sitting there.
Questions are bubbling up in her head.
Why?
When?
How?

HOW COULD YOU DO THIS?
WHEN DID YOU DECIDE TO DO THIS?
WHAT MADE YOU THINK IT WAS OKAY TO ME?

I hadn’t always been this way.
It happened in a snap.
When there is a world out there, dying of starvation
When there is a world out there, looking for another meal
When there is a world out there, where babies are killed.
You know that this shouldn’t be done but you can’t help it because that is just how. you. are.

I live in a world full of lies.
Everywhere I turn, they look at me with regret, because they know what they are.
Questions become answers but answers are never questioned

That girl right there is not okay
That girl right there will be forever dirty
That girl right there doesn’t know where else to look let alone hide.

You thought it would be OKAY?!
You thought it was HER FAULT that you did this?
You never thought!
You didn’t think that this girl would lose her self-worth, right?!
YOU NEVER THOUGHT THAT HER LIFE WAS RUINED BECAUSE OF YOU.

I was okay until it happened.
People treated me with respect and acted as if I existed.
Now I am “it”
Forever. I. Am. IT.

That girl sitting right there.
That girl sitting RIGHT HERE.
That girl is gone because you only saw her as “that girl”.
?
Pics Pressure
Send. It.
Send it please!
Send it right now.
Send it before I…

A slap to the wrist?
A slap to the face?
A slap.
to your self-esteem.

You shouldn’t do that.
That’s not right.
I haven’t really thought
Of it.

You’re so pretty.
Baby. you’re sexy
Baby I need you.
Baby, please.

So she sends it.
It.
The only thing standing between her relationship
And dignity

He laughs.
He jokes.
He jaykay’s
He lies.

She’s sad
She’s guilty
She’s hurt
She’s IT.

His friends are swooning
Her friends are leaving.
His friends are gawking
Her friends are mocking

She shouldn’t have done it.
He shouldn’t have asked.
It was HIS fault
It was HER fault.
It WAS society’s fault

That girl right there.
That boy right there.
They are no longer together.
They were disappointed
  of each other.
?
Wanted
You just don’t understand.
Understand the pain.
You just don’t want
The pain

You think I’m fine
Inside? I’m dying
You think I’m happy
Inside? I’m crying.

You think you know what’s best for me.
You think you have it ALL figured out about me

You just don’t get it!!
You just don’t get why I CARE
You don’t comprehend the feelings I have.

When I take a walk
You think I try to escape you.
Has it occurred to you, that I’m trying to escape life?

   I try to escape
  Myself
   I try to escape
  Reality

I try to escape the world around
Life in general
Until I walk

When I walk
I get to think
When I think
I get to be me
When all that happens
I get to be happy

When I walk
I get to lie
About all the feelings I have
And say “I’m fine!”
With a smile.
And a nod

You just don’t get that
You don’t get it.
It.
IT!

Your life. You grew up to other disappointments
Your life. Was different.
You. Were. Wanted.

I stand here telling myself I am.
But in reality?
I’m not wanted by many.

Until you look…and see
Many.
MANY.
Everyone. EVERYTHING
Want’s me.
I am. WANTED.
?
Lonely but not alone
That girl.
YOU’RE the IT girl
Hey girl!
Damn girl!

All sent.
All thought.
All told.
Never bought.

She’s the one…
She’s the one who…
She’s the one who sits on Facebook with so many friends.
She’s the one who has a thousand instalikes
She’s the one with the smile on her face!

Telling you otherwise?
She sits.
She cries.
She hurts.
She dies.

It’s a slow death.
It isn’t REAL
But it is.

She may have her “friends”
But she doesn’t have her FRIENDS

School sucks.
For her.

Walking the halls like an ant.
Walking the halls like she doesn’t belong.
Walking the halls, like a pet.
Walking the halls. Because she can’t stop.

It ends.
It begins.
Day-by-day
Week. By. Week.

Boys don’t look.
Girls stare.
Boys laugh. And talk.
Girls leave. And walk.

She doesn’t belong here.
She knows this.
She belongs. Somewhere. Else.

This girl.
That. Girl.
It girl.
Gone. Girl.