The past couple weeks have wrecked me, it's 3:30 in the morning and I'm up thinking of all the bad things I've done. I get on social media and I see a video talking about god, saying he's always gonna be there even when I think he won't. Saying that it's up to me to make things better, and that's my goal. Put my thoughts on paper for them to be thrown away, put them on a website that let's you speak freely as a person just to be ignored. If you see this, know in the times where it's hard where you feel like you finally take a step forward and you're pushed three steps back, keep walking. Know this it will get better. It will be a moment of the past that you can look on, that changed you as person. It made you who you are today and if you don't like you, change you for you. Don't change you for the people around you who look and act better. Don't try to be something you're not.