she is like a carefully hand crafted book
one with numerous pages written in a deep bloody red ink of type A 
she has blank pages
ready to have the bloody inked words soaked into them
as her story carries on

the kind of book where you can literally feel the rain on the roof as it pours
this particular book was made in the dusty heat of texas air
a book that has traveled a long distance
to sit upon the dust shelves of wrightstown high for four long years
before she transferred to our oshkosh public library

where waiting became more of a hobby
where wishing
was about as useful at safety goggles to prevent pregnancy
but her anticipation was high
that someone would have enough heart
to decriped the encrypted codes on the pages
that laid between brown chipped covers
of her story

her day came on a sweet tasting summer night july 21st 2014

but to me
shes not as much of a book
as she is the silver spiral of my five star
the same five star
that where i write
about the loud crunching bang bang pow sounds of my secrets
where i write about my captivating unforgettable love i have for her
and the sight of the love and support from my dysfunctional family

that she can see with her warm autumn coated eyes
that my disfunctional family actually lacks in the love and support department
and since shes a 19 year old college kid
she feels she has an obligation to decode and repair
the mix twilight feeling my family gives off

but her only responsibility to me is
to continue to be that one parcel that holds all the torn white paper together

in my head i envision her as a big  buff bodybuilder
lacking the bronze but still having the capability to have a brilliant sense of intellect and humor
ready to lift the hurt off of me in a blink of an eye
when she sees i'm incapable to do so
while never letting me forget te amo Alexandria

theres no difference between shoes and laces and the friction we feel 
always together never apart
side by side loving and supporting eachother every step of the way

because shes my ying to my yang
my smoke to my high
my best side kick yet

her heart is where i hear the most majestic bass rumbling music
that can only be heard
if your ear is place in the most gentle position across her thorax

shes the feeling of a exotic fire in your belly
when you have your very first kiss
because of the thought that someone has the audacity to kiss you
that someone wants to be your first
it blows up with a big bang of a aqua blue ball of bright light fire in your heart
and she continues to be
the silver binding hand created bodybuilding aqua blue ball of fire in my life