In the nightmare of a memory,

A frighting place a brain calls home,

A long never ending hallway of horrors,

Where this hallway leads you will never see,

For this is not your nightmare, it's only in me,

You will never understand what haunts me,

My memories are my own,

I want to tell you everything, I want to scream for help,

Can I trust again, can you handle it?,

You might wanna get a chair, go ahead sit.

You may know me as a "w***e,"

You may know me as a "druggie,"

Under my surface is truth,

But my lips lie,

One more deep sigh.

I trusted so many, so few were trustworthy,

I was?, I am?, I can't be?,

When did some small girl become.. this?,

When one name dies, another starts,

With glossy eyes, torn minds, and broken hearts.

When my head hits the pillow, I remember you,

Your memory floods my head, each small detail,

The slaps, the pain, the tears, the fights,

Every night without fail you would hurt me,

A permanent burn on my mind, like the teeth of a key.

Frightening isn't it, things that have scared me,

My mind constantly goes back to that,

Each time I see a gun it reminds me of it,

All the force, and all the hate,

The threats would start after beer eight.

Each beer left more marks on my body,

Nobody knew, makeup hides it so well,

Bruises, cuts, and gashes,

All those and much more,

But as you said "this comes with being a w***e."

This is not who I want to be,

This is not what I want to be,

This isn't me, 

This isn't fair,

Does anyone even care?,

What can I do to make you understand,

I don't think words can explain,

The pain I feel inside, I do so good at hiding,

The way it felt thinking of you before,

It left me broken and sore.

Thinking of you now leaves me degraded and scared,

Not wanting you around is a dream I can't have,

Though we aren't even together anymore,

You don't care what I have beem through,

You are putting me through it too.
It isn't enough to hurt me only when you had me,

Hide in the shadows, take more of me,

Leave me abused and shaking,

Nobody hears me cry,

Because "w***es aren't loud enough to get caught" that's why.

Maybe by doing this you are teaching me a lesson,

But all that's happening is I don't want to love again,

That's okay I'm owned,

Leave me alone, I don't want this,

Just stop at one last kiss.

Let the shadows brighten once and for all,

Step away from me,

I can't take this anymore,

Leave me alone please,

So I can finally put to rest this nightmare of a memory.