As I lie in my field of mistakes
I wonder how the hell I got here
It might seem totally crazy
But my heart is driven by fear
It's left me crippled to the bone
But that's okay
That's all I'll believe
And that's all I'll ever say
My wrists are stained
With each battle that I've lost
They tell stories I could never put into words
The fallen are now bleeding and turning to rust
Hope seems like a fairytale
Or a myth told by someone called lies
Butterflies in the sky are a distant memory
And the ones in books who light the night sky
What do I do now?
I have nothing to live for
It seems as if I'm no longer needed
How long till I'm dead on the floor?
As I count each second
Another pill is placed in my veins
Taking my life away as if going to sleep
Never have I felt such happiness come into play
Such a new feeling..
Such a new hope..
Such a new glance at reality..
Such a relief that I'm finally free..
But still
Here I stand
Dreaming of what that's like
The thought burning into my head like a brand
Oh how I long for that feeling
But it never answers my plea
I gasp for air every second I live on
I'm so angry.. WHY CAN'T I JUST BE FREE.
So with one glance in the mirror
I say my goodbye to the soul inside
Take my last hopeful breath..
And sleep my life away in a tub of my mistakes..
Forever free in a land of oblivion
Never to worry again
Never suffering among myself
I'm finally free..but now I'm starting to regret it.