Abyss
Fluttering into an abyss,
dreaming for a way out
of this madness I call life.
Seeing a way out,
But knowing it’s not the right one.
Crawling to the door,
That lies ahead of me;
But like Alice in Wonderland,
I'm too small,
And I'm just too far from the table.
It towers above me
Like a shadow against a blank wall,
A vast ocean swallowing-
Breathing me in.
Every decision I've ever made
Crashes down on me- swallowing me in
Like the whale from Jonah.

It makes me wish,
Just for once,
I could see into the future,
Know what all the right answers are,
And do all of this -- 
In a blink of an eye.