Everyone goes through pain

Everyone goes through sorrow

Hoe you chose to handle it,

That effects your tomorrow

You can chose to face it,hide it,or throw it away 

Or like me just build a wall,

And just forget about it all

These walls I built where high for a reason

Because I didn't know where to run

I didn't know where to hide

So I will just stay in my little box,

and swallow up my pride 

I would just hide myself from the world

So they couldn't see

At the time I didn't know

They don't see like I see

Day after day I would walk with that face

The one that said "I was alright"

But honestly,it was all fake 

At the time did I care?

No, it was the last one on my plate,

like the left overs that get thrown out at the end of the day

No one use's them,so they don't seem to matter 

That's what I thought,I don't use my feelings,

So how could they matter?

How could I let just one person in?

With out going through all that pain again.

They would lie and lie and say

"Oh I've changed this time"

But really they where just flipping the same dime

When I say they,I mean my mom

The one who thought drugs where more important than her kids

You ask her where she's going 

"Oh,I've got some business to do,But I'm coming back,

I'll never leave you"

That was the first lie I heard out of many

But it wasn't the first time she left me for drugs,

but in a few years I wasn't with her anymore,

Which can still break my heart,

Cause I craved for my mom to care

My dad,well he wasn't much better

He'd come in at night,staggering through the house 

He'd say "Oh I'm not drunk,I just had a night out"

This left all the pain,I didn't know what to do with

So I'd just push it back down,and the wall got even higher

But there was a day,

It was 7 years ago,

We saw my birthmom out in the mall,

I noticed her belly wasn't that small.

She looked at me and looked at my brother

And said "Guys I have another chance to be a mother"

This time I'm going to do it right

For 8 years old,I thought I could believe her

But 2 years later I saw I was wrong

Becky was in jail,and Luke was gone,

My austic baby brother was ripped out from my arms

There was nothing I could do,

My once upon a time just wasn't coming true 

I was 11 years old,I didn't know what to do

The one kid I loved more than anything in the world

Was taking away,and thrown out the door

Fears of rejection and abandonment began to creep in

In the cracks of my walls that was soon to fall,

I was to weak to build my wall up any higer 

So I just let it go,fall into the fire