I am from San Jose,

where the air is heavy , thick by pollution.

Where water is drying out fast , and being wasted by these stupid water challenges.

From gang violence at every corner , where walking around late at night isn’t as safe as it use to be. To traveling about two hours away just to be surrounded by the sea , of crashing and thrashing waves.

To be surrounded by the angry sea seems to make me feel at peace.

I fear school , I feel as if it suffocates me with.That if I don’t get an A or higher i’m just a disgrace , a failure to my family who has much faith in me.

I miss being in the woods , surrounded by the huge red wood trees. I miss waking up to the sun shining on my face , as it is my alarm to awake. Now i’m living in a horrid reality , where all i hear is cars speeding down the street.To hear loud music up and down the street.Laying wide awake as the dogs howl at eachother , as if to ask how are one another.With cats fighting over a scrap of meat that they found in the street.

As I walk up to my front door I am consumed by agony.Where i walk into my room and close the door behind me , to shut out reality.To go to bed or blast out the sounds of this horrible world , an escape to wonderland , where I am the Alice. As I look to the right of my room , my reflection stares back at me deep into my soul , as the mirror hangs there mocking every move I make as it laughs in my face.I look around to the images on my wall , my Batman poster to comfort me , my band posters who give me hope in the songs they sing. Sing to me like a lullaby as I fall into a deep sleep.

Waking up to my cat rubbing against my face , as if she’s asking if i’m okay , but in reality she just wants food.That’s what it smells like in my room , cat food.

As I lay there thinking of how much I despise this place I call “home’ , it’s more like a prison with the door left open , I can leave anytime i’m just too paralyzed to move.