i have everything i could ever want

people want to be me

but i wish that i could be someone else

at the same time they wish

they could be me

i want to be them

because the girl with the perfect grades

who made junior varsity as a freshman

the girl in an elite show choir

surrounded by friends and laughter

all smiles and happiness

is just a wall, that no ones breached

i’ve given up that anyone will

no one cares enough to realize

that just maybe i’m falling apart

on the inside

i feel like no one cares enough

to look closer and see

the swollen eyes

from nights spent crying

her cloudy eyes, that never smile with her

a fake laugh, boisterous and crazy

completely false personality

bubbly and happy

on the inside i hurt like hell

i’m not sure that i belong in the world anymore

i’ve come to question who i am

and why i exist

no one cares enough to try

so why am i trying to be someone i’m not

i have walls, and no one is running into them

no ones on the path that leads straight there

everyones chosen a path parallel to my wall

so no one notices

that the person i am

is just a 

facade