I will be lonely

For the rest of my life.

Don’t try telling me that

Even though life is slow

A person will come along

To steal my

Heart.

It is a stupid concept.

So irrational.

“Rachel, we love you.” That’s

Exactly what I don’t want to hear.

A sentence to make me puke,

Life shouldn’t be that way.

I don’t know if you understand but,

When someone tries telling me different

I don’t believe them like I should.

So what if it’s true in “your book”.

How am I supposed to believe it when I have no feelings?

I know people love me. “If I hurt myself, would

They even care?”

Unusual thoughts have been invading my mind.

People talking about me behind my back.

Oh, the pain!

No one would notice if I just disappeared, right?

My nights grow lonely, only a void

You can fill in my heart.

Someone I care about doesn’t

Even care about me.

Leave him alone, I tell myself.

Forget it, I can’t do that.