Your hurt is something deeper

Asserting your dominance at all the wrong times

It's clear to me

The want is still there

A deep longing almost forgotten

I want to die

I don't want it if it doesn't hurt me

I can't go on sabotaging my life if it's hurting yours

I can't go on hurting myself if it hurts you

But how dare you put that pressure on me

I ask you, what is worth more, health or happiness?

I'm making cracks in myself, line after line, until one day I break

I need to make it clear to you

I'm holding onto nothing

And nothing doesn't last forever

I'm leaving my mark on myself

When will you learn to see what's not visible