This is weird
I never thought I’d be put in this position
Driving down this road that never seemed to end,
To visit someone
Whose life almost did

I pulled over for a minute,
to swallow the tears,
to refocus,
to regain the much needed strength to continue

I pulled up to the building
Searched for a place to park
Took a deep breath and got out of my car

With every step I took my heart raced,
my mind swirled with “that ifs”
Before I knew it I was at the greeter,
he asked whom I was visiting
then it all became real
all the tears I’d been holding back
fell out
One by one
The strength that I thought I needed,
for her
Was gone

I was just a body walking through those halls
My mind was soaring above me

I was checked in on her floor,
escorted to her room,
and there she was

How are you supposed to react?
In these situations especially…
But I just stood there,
waited for her

In that little room
With that little bed
Little chair
And little girl
My heart broke into a million little pieces

I’ve never seen her like this before,
my best friends body,
but someone else inside

She tried to act okay,
I knew she wasn’t
But I knew she would be

She got out of bed when she saw me,
ran into my arms,
and we cried

Tears of happiness, or sadness
I don’t know
Maybe just of acknowledgment
Symbolizing “I’m here”
But in two different ways