Meeting you at that park bench on August 7th
May or may not have changed my life.
The way asking for that first cigarette changed my life
Or taking that ACT after chasing laughter and booze all night
Changed my life.
I don’t really know when it was that I decided to love toxic people
But it sure as hell changed my life.
I looked at you and I finally understood every stupid love song on the radio.
You put gasoline in my veins and lit a match right by my heart.
I never thought it could feel so good to burn.
Eventually the fire went out,
And I was left with a charred taste in my throat and ashes in my hair.
You changed me but now it was time for me to change myself.
I planted flowers inside of my rib cage,
And put the stars back into my eyes.
I taught myself to quit trying to touch yesterday.
To learn that there is nothing beautiful about self-destruction,
That trying to fix a boy with a broken past will only break your heart.
Figuring out that I had to love myself before I could love someone else,
Undoubtedly changed my life.