and i swear to god that i will love you forever and that you will be my one and only and that even if i lose you i'll never forget how perfect you are and how much i love you and i'll never stop loving you because you are the only person that i fully trust and the only person that understands me the only person who i tell all my secrets the only person who i open up to the only person who can make me smile when i'm sad the only person who i can really forgive when i'm mad your the only person that i don't have to pretend around and when i'm with you is when i feel real you make me feel alive and when you look at me i feel myself glow and even though i try to act like i don't care and you're not that important i know i can't hide forever and i know that if i ever lose you i won't be me and that's the only thing that scares me I'm terrified that if you leave you'll never come back and i know that you are honestly the most important person in my life and even though we don't see each other very often without you in my life i will be lost and i know that if i lose you it won't matter to you because I'm not as special to you as you are to me and that's okay because as long as you don't forget me and as long as you don't leave me i'll be okay i'll manage somehow i'll make it through everyday by thinking of you and remembering how beautiful you are and the way your eyes light up when you laugh and somehow i'll live so if you ever do leave i'll be okay i'll be empty and a shell of myself but i'll manage somehow it'll be the thought of you that keeps me going and that will be enough to keep me alive but alive and living aren't the same and i just want you to know that i love you to the moon and beyond forever forever because your first love never dies and you are my one and only and you will forever live on in my heart forever.
Forever.