I babble
on and on
trying to distract those words
from coming out
to halt them
giving me
just a few more seconds
of happiness


Because I know
what they
will say
I know
what they
will do

Eventually
there is nothing more
to babble
so
I give away
my happiness
I give away
the innocence
that nothing bad will ever happen

I give in
to my sadness
as those words
that I
couldn’t
stop
from coming
fall
like
a
bomb

Shattering my world
but I knew
what they
would say
I knew
what they
would do

So I glue
the surface
of my shattered world
while I keep
the broken pieces
inside myself

Trying to put
the shards together
to unite myself
into a better version
is harder than it looks

My world
deflates
into a
small
dense
ball
that sits heavily
on my chest

Waiting for me to crack it open
and fix those shards