Aug 15 3:47 am

I am too busy falling in love with
words
journeys
thoughts 

to make falling in love with
people
a priority

but what tends to happen
where things change 
is when I find some of the
words
journeys
and thoughts 
I've fallen in love with
in some people
I come across 

and I think 
well
some of the little things 
that made me fall in love with life
have come alive in someone

so naturally 
with all the curiosity I normally have for those
words
journeys
and thoughts

I try to discover the words that made up that person. the words that haunt him and the words that make him feel most at ease.

I try to understand the journeys they've made to become who they are; u-turns, bumps, missed exits, moments of being lost and all. Along with the journeys they hope to make to get to the ultimate destination, if they've got one.

I try to find out about all the thoughts they get in the middle of the night, plans they draw out, the expectations and the dreams they drown in every night. The ones that make it hard for them to breathe and the ones that keep them holding on.

It's all a huge quest to me
a journey of discovery
and even though I trip up
 and bruise my knees 
  and feel my chest tighten
   and look up at the stars for      
     guidance 

Every minute spent on it I've found something to keep to remind me of everything I've learned along the way. 

The countless scrapbooks of photos and cutouts of people that've changed and places that've perished in my memories.

The sleepless nights spent trying to know more about them, about myself, about the world, about everything. 

And the ones regretting the nights spent hurting myself for trying to know more about them, about myself, about the world, about everything.

Everything; 
the good and the bad
 the happiness and the hurt
  the dreams and the nightmares
   the sleepless nights and the 
    weekend sleep-ins 
     the new songs and the old 
      ones that my head still has      
       the lyrics to memorized.

Everything makes it worth it
And everything is why I haven't given up on falling in love with
words
journeys
and thoughts