It's funny really, how one day you’re going on and about, laughing with your friend, thinking how awesome they are. Forgetting there flaws and the other side of them, the not so perfect one. You see things you've never noticed about them, like how their true colors are finally starting to show, like how ignorant and dumb they are, not like a sweet little angle you thought after at all. And only you happen to notice; only you can see through the bulls***, as if god had given you another set of eyes, showing you how wrong it was of you to trust them. How wrong it was for you to look up to them thinking there just perfect and smart.
How stupid it was of you to be there for them, to welcome them with open arms when they first came, to help they adjust and let them get comfortable, to comfort them when they have problems. Doing whatever it takes to make them happy. Helping them yet again, get comfortable. That is always a big mistake, never ever let anybody get comfortable, that's like given them have access to you, permission to use you, to take advantage of you for their own benefit. I guess it was just your time to go, that you left for a reason. I guess it was just plain wrong of me to trust you, to be there for you. To open up to you, to welcome you with open arms, to support you no matter what, to lend you a helping hand when you needed it most, to lift you up when you are down. But I guess that's the thing about trust, you just don't know, don't know when people will backstab you, betrayal you, talk behind your back, to spill all you secrets to make into the towns gossip, to ignore you like you don't even exist. To make you question your own existents. They will always turn their back on you; just stop talking to you one day. You leave them alone and go on with your life because you get that you’re not wanted.
You know that they want you to chase them, but you know better. You think that you lost an important friendship. But you wait a day or two and feel as if a great weight had been lifted off your shoulders. That you feel free. That their friendship was only dragging you down. That you don't hate them no matter how much they try to make you jealous or piss you off, how they talk behind your back or try to bully you. You don't do anything because you simply don't care about them anymore. You didn't care of what they do or what the accomplishment, or their downfall because you could care less. Nothing bothers you anymore. You knew that you should have never given them a chance, everybody told you not to, you just thought you knew them better than they did, you kept ignoring your faults, thinking you'd better then what people say, you were wrong again, all you know is that you never knew them and you never will, it was wrong of you to trust them and think they were not like the rest, but you were wrong again, you feel foolish now for all the sacrifices you had made, all the opportunities you pass up that will never come again, well, at least you’ve learned a lesson and are now thankful for it.
You will never know what you did for all this to happen, but you don’t care. You learn to have good people around to keep you company, but never fully trust anybody. There will be a day when all secrets come out and everybody will know what you've been hiding, you also learn things other have been hiding and gain a new perspective. No matter how much you think you know a something or a person, you never truly know who's hiding inside that body. You learn to be alone. You also realize that at the end of the day, it'll be just you. You learn to think for yourself, after all, you’re going to be judged alone on judgment day."There will be a day when one flees from his brother, and from his mother and his father, and from his wife and children. Every one of them will be too engaged with his own affairs to care for others" ( sura abasa- Quran). You’ve simply learned to do little good here and there, but never let yourself get caught up in what this life has to offer because it's simply just another test.