I knew I shouldn't
But I began to crave everything about you.

I began to crave the glances over your shoulder.
The simple, quiet smile that would crawl over your face
And disappear.
A constant, unfaltering mistake to be around.

I was losing control, slipping endlessly,
Into this ocean without edge.
The abyss swallowed me up, without hesitation.

I knew I shouldn't, but I drowned myself in you.
I held myself under and shook until there was nothing else.
Only water.

No more lonely thoughts in the dark,
No longer overwhelmed by emptiness.
No more treading water,
No longer gasping for air.

Giving myself to you;
To your calms and your storms,
To your crests and your ravines.

Only complete annihilation in my future.
As the lights grew dim, I sunk deeper and deeper.
Losing myself in desperate escape,
I aimed to become one with the mighty ocean,
But the cold tide pushed me away.
You had my all and didn't even notice.