1.
I’m sorry I kissed your boyfriend.
It’s just that his eyes sucked mine in, gracing each eye lid
As though we were right back to where we used to be
With his arm around my shoulder and his hand holding my dreams.
Gently caressing my back with his hopes for us, speaking of Eden
Yet I took my bite from the apple and listened to the snake
Now all I’ve got is the taste of his mouth imprinted in my memory
Embraced by recollections of my first fall, my first word, my first mistake
As with every kind word he’s sent my way a little piece of him would stay
To reassure me on a rainy day, that this was not the end
That there were still steps to take and I’d not yet found my place to lay.

2.
I didn’t mean to send him that ‘x’
A simple typo leading to a recounting of casual endings that felt so right
Now it stands out on the LED page of my iphone 4s
An awkward fumble as I reach for his hand and he kisses my neck
But I’d heard the story of Icarus, flying high to get what he wanted
So I spread my wings and sent you to the back of my mind
For he is the sun, my sustainer
I need him to carry on, to feed me with moments and light
Yet he is my downfall, my kryptonite,
He knows how to break me and make me fight
Lifting my up, raising me high I engulf the wind like a kite
No time to stop, no time to think, you’re just a speck from this great height.
It doesn’t stop me that I know that this is not right.

3.
Behind every martyr is a motive to die
A lack of freedom when a concept takes flight
I knew I had to leave him, kill me it may
My time was now I was without a say
I typed in your number as though it was my own
My fingers knew the ritual, my ears the tone
Yet without him I have no reason

Now I stand alone once more
the sun had burned me
I could finally take the fall.