When I look at you
I feel as if my insides are being ripped out
And thrown across the ocean

You are life and death
And you are my deepest darkest thoughts
And the tears on my pillow in the middle of the night

You don't love me
Thank god you don't love me
For if you did
And if I could hold you in my arms
Whenever I wished
I would reach such climax
Such happiness
And happiness is dangerous in the hands of the wrong person

And wrong I am
With bad thoughts
And a terrible past
In which you are part of
And look at me now
Look what you have done to me
What I have brought upon myself

I love you
But I am not in love with you
My heart skips at the mere thought of your lips
And the memory of how they felt
Tracing the veins
In my neck
And the lips below my waist

I don't need you
Or the lingering smell of cigarettes on your breath
I need someone who wants me for more than my body
I need you gone
I need you
Not