No matter what, I always manage to hurt everyone. I don’t know how, it just happens.
I feel depressed? I should stop being so selfish and focus on other peoples’ feelings too, because obviously they feel A WHOLE LOT WORSE than I ever will.
I cut myself? I shouldn’t be so dramatic.
How could I do this to my family? I promised them I wouldn’t do it again and look at me; I betrayed them. I am a disgrace to my family. I should be absolutely ashamed of myself.
I don’t know why I feel this way.
It comes and goes and I can’t do a thing to stop it.
God, I can’t even tell my parents because they’ll get angry at me and then they’ll start crying and blaming themselves and then they’ll blame me for doing this to them.
They always seem to manage to make it about themselves, don’t they? I feel like I’ll never truly be able to get help until I’m dead.
And even then they’ll probably make it about themselves.
I hate myself so much and I don’t even know how this started.
Why do I have to be the strongest girl and the most fragile human being?