You come. You go.
but you seem not to notice
as I drift away.

I keep trying
to snatch an old friend back
but I seem not to know
No! I do know
that you will not be my friend
but I don't want to accept it
because it makes
me
sad
angry
and confused
all at the same time.

Now
I'm beginning to wonder
if I should just let you go.
You're no boyfriend of mine.
But you were
a really good friend.
someone who seemed
to understand me
and I understood you.

We were from the same place
and had so much in common
that we both thought
we had some special connection
but now I'm not so sure.

I wish I could forget
but you
keep coming back
and it makes it so hard
for me to go back
to knowing we can't
or...
NO!
We can't be friends.
I don't know why
you just have too many
of those other friends
that hang around you.

Why can't you realize it?
Or do something to help
so I don't feel like I'm being
torn in half.

I wave
after your retreating back
and feel another part of myself
break away with him.

I turn around
take a deep breath
and walk away.